susah!

susahnyer berada di dalam perhubungan..

u r so bound and tied..

mcmana korang tahan layan msg and call?????

i dont get it?

it's hard for me to do that..

mcm letih jer..bukan mcm..memang letih pun..

I want to have bf..but, i dont think i can do it..

maybe i'm single so long now that i'm not comfortable having relationship..

I give up..

yeah, I can see myself as andartu in future rite now..*sigh*

Should I tell you about those whom the hellfire is forbidden to touch?

It is forbidden to touch every approachable, easy-going, soft-spoken and gentle person.

Today Quotable Quote:

salam everyone..

Hani rasa mulai hari ini dan yg akan dtg, hani nak letak petikan kata2 motivasi..because I really love motivational quotes!!! and I want to share it with you guys too...syg kalau xkongsi...what I like u also must like! hehe...

Sebagai pembuka, I stumbled on this really good quote..it's really inspiring me.

From author,Govin Alagasari of his book, Mahathir: The Awakening,

"I have had the privilege for the last several years of following Dr.Mahathir on many of his overseas trips, covering the events for Bernama. Though most of us journalists covering him are much younger than him, we have to admit that he possesses much more stamina to last his usually hectic schedule than us! In one of his trips, I asked him for the secrets which make him to never seem to suffer from fatigue and jet leg. His answer was that travelling is something which he enjoys and one never gets tired doing something he enjoys doing. Dr. Mahathir is also without doubt the world's most widely travelled Prime Minister and covering him has been a truly enriching experience for journalists."

My opinion: So true!!

Adui!

Ok, Hani da tau result...

dengan berani nyer sy confess di sini..

Result paling teruk pernah sy dapat!!

Adui..camne boleh jadi mcmni? senang je jwpn..mak hani ckp..kamu xcukup usaha..

then, hani cuba bela diri dpn ayah..kata first time degree la, kena naik bas la..kawat penat la..bla3..sbb tu result mcmni..ayah hani kata..kamu ni byk alasan, kamu kena....(censored..malu2..)

Let me tell u..sedih gler..result penat2 dah print nak tunjuk kat ayah...tapi ayah xmau tgk..ayah mengelak...mungkin sbb dah tahu result teruk xkasi tunjuk lagi elok...ni la garangnya ayah hani..kena telan pahit nya rasa di hati...sebak tau x hati ini....rasa hina sgt..smpai semalam rasa mcm nak lari dari rumah..tapi sy msih ada akal..kang nak tdo kat mane..no food no money..xjadi..baik tdo je la..

Tapi, mcmana sedihnyer hani dilakukan sebegitu, hani msih kuat semangat..ala, nangis skejap je..dua tiga hari..skrg dah ok..xperlu la nangis lebih2..sbb hani tahu ni baru cipot je..bila dah keje..azab dia lagi byk...kena marah dgn bos...presentation penat2 buat bos kata mcm sampah..tu lagi sadis rasanya..

First trial..at least dpt jadi kayu ukuran..rasanya byk kena catch up ni...nak tebus balik pointer..next sem kena triple kan kekuatan mental dan badan..Hani akan make sure, this is the LAST...xde dah hopefully....kena make sure jgak...kalau xbuat mcmni hancur la masa depan..

xdapat la nak merasa belajar di overseas....lagipun hani mesti sama kan taraf dgn 'dia'...

mesti kejar dia! hehehe...serious nih..'-'

Oh ye, Hani baca dlm suratkhabar News Strait Times..tajuk dia pasal 'What Movie Move You?'

So, hani tertarik dgn petikan yg hebat dari Rocky Balboa..It went like this..

"You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you're no good.

"And when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow.

"You, me or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit.

"It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward.

"That's how winning is done!"

Kemudian dia ckp lagi kat anak dia...

"Don't ever let somebody tell you you can't do something. Not even me. You got a dream, you got to protect it.(bes gler ayat ini!!)

"People can't do something themselves, they want to tell you, 'you can't do it'. You want something, go get it. Period."

So, what do u think? Adakah kawan2 masih rasa down dgn result slpas membaca ini?

I..I..I really miss U..

Saya masih belum tdo...
hati saya terkenang kan seseorg..
xpatut sy kenangkan lagi pada org yg xmahu..

Tetapi hati sy sampai hari ini xmahu putus asa..
Biarpun sy tahu dia sudah pegi jauh dari sy..
sy menyesal dahulu sy xmenghargai kehadiran dia di sisi sy..

Dulu sy ada peluang..tapi sy xmenggunakan nya..
Kerana sy segan..sy malu..sy mana penah keluar dgn lelaki..

Dia tahu perasan saya padanya..
Itu menjadikannya lagi parah..
kerana sy hanya lah kawan padanya..

Tapi hati sy tetap menyukai nya..
wpon dia dah berbyk kali memecah kan hati sy..
mungkin sy dah terbiasa??
Mungkin penangan drama korea??

Saya teringin tanya keadaan dia..
tapi sy malu..

Saya teringin tanya susah kah hidup dia di tempat org?
tapi sy malu..

Saya teringin tanya adakah dia menjaga makan dan minumnya?
tapi sy malu..

Saya ingin tanya adakah dia merindui sy seperti mana sy merindui dia?
Mungkin jwpan nya sudah tentu 'tidak' ...

Sape lah sy di hatinya..
saya pernah berdoa pada Allah SWT, jikalau tidak ada jodoh diantara saya dan dia..Bantu lah sy melupakan nya...Tapi jikalau ada jodoh diantara kami..Permudahkan lah jalan kami..

Bila saya berjaya lupakan dia..dia muncul dalam mimpi sy..
Mungkin ramai anggap bila sy mimpi dia, maksudnya mimpi yg indah..
TIDAK sama sekali..

Saya benci mimpi pasal dia..
Setiap kali dia muncul dalam mimpi sy..
Dia xpenah pandang sy..
Seperti sy tidak wujud..
Setiap kali sy cuba mendekati nya..
Dia lari..dia mengelak..

Bila sy bangkit..sy pasti rasa lemah badan..
Hilang mood..rasa diri sy ini sgt menyedih kan..
Sudah la realiti ini dia xmahu sy..
Malah dunia mimpi pun dia xsuka pd sy..

Adakah ini satu petanda?
tuhan mahu sy mengingati dia?
atau mengingatkan sy supaya lupakan dia krn dia xpenah peduli pasal sy?

Sy seorg yg setia mungkin..
setia xbertempat??

I really hope he see this..
But I know that is so impossible..

Hope u r doing well in your study..
Hopefully u will marry someone that is suit for you..
Hopefully u r happy..

Just knowing that I always be here for u..
If only u know~

Saya takot nak tgk result!!!

Alamak..result da kuar...

mcmana ni..takot nyer..kalau dok pikir psl benda ni..boleh giler terus sewel..

haih..nasib baik tak boleh bukak..

Tapi xlama lg sure boleh bukak..

sape2 ade tips nak bagi result power??

belom terlambat kan???

selagi result xtgk..

ada harapan kan? kan? kan?

Istigfar byk3...

Harap2 ada rezeki kali ni...

Hopefully the history doesnt repeat itself again...*sob3*

Omg...hensem kan dia!! Yunho oppa!!

Bukan sahaja pandai dalam mengetuai DBSK..

tapi dia juga mempunyai sifat leadership, charisma, romantik yg tinggi!!!

I'm so attracted to his manliness( btoi ke eja?)...

wpun tegas dan kuat berusaha..

tapi bila dia ngan kekasihnya..

dia sgt sweet..he is happy kalau awek dia pun happy!!

cair nyer dia ckp mcmtu..

full with leadership quality n maturedness(matang la)..

I want husband with this type of materials!!!

Anyone???

A new rise of sunshine.

Salam everyone..

Nothing much to talk here..but just want to share a bit of what's happening with me lately..
After the school holidays, I realize I've changed a lot..well, in a good way..
I've become more positive, stronger, I can handle the pressure..I cant believe I did it!
The most important, I've become more diligent..hehehe..I've started growing love reading LAW books..as like before, i always felt dreadful n keep procrastinate studying..

But, whenever I feel want to give up..I remind myself what my parents had gone through just to make sure I succeed..I need to repay their deeds to me..and I cant do that if I dont have education..because without education, u dont have money..and without money, u can buy nothing!

that's all..


P/s: yesterday, me and atiq without fiqa and v ( lovely roommate ) watched devil wears prada n chori2 chupke2!

Motivation

Have u ever feel insecure?
To be someone u want to be, but u r afraid to show who u really r..
u think people will stare at u in disbelief..
u dont want to be the odd in the group..
the weirdo..
the loser..

like, everyone is smoking, but u dont..
like, everyone has pakwe makwe, but u dont,
like, everyone mencarut2, but u dont,
like, everyone know every 'cool' places, but u dont,
like, everyone wear selendang n tight dress, but u dont,
like, everyone feel proud to have lots of frens, but u dont,
like, everyone is really smart, but kinda think u not that smart,
like, everyone is kurus, but u dont,
like, everyone is lawa, but u dont,
like, everyone doesnt wear make up, but u do,
like, bla bla bla~ (infinity)


Stop rite here n think...It is okay with u to sacrife ur personalities an allowed others to bind their 'concept' with u?

U also lose all ur attitude n change completely from head to toe..
from baik to jahat..
so that u can satisfy their need?

so that u can be accepted?

But, deep inside u hate it every moment..

u want to reveal n be who u r..

BUT..

u held back by people around u..

u wait for one day to come for someone to accept u the way u are..

DONT WAIT..

Dont wait for someone to tell u that u r allowed to be who u r or do what u want..

If u r waiting...u r waiting far too long..

Life is too short to wait for ur dreams...

U have to Chase them now..

BE who u want to be..

U decide, its ur life, ur sole..not them..

ACT NOW..

Nothing is more fulfilling than doing what u love and being who u r..cewah..

Everyone is busy and fighting with each other to get results, until they forget to be human for a while.
Trampled everyone around them, left them out, and make sure only they survive(pass in exam).
It's not enough to just win, u have to have attitude.
Attitude that can carry u in this dog-eat-dog world and hereafter.
Win with dignity not dirty.
Help other people, and Allah SWT will help u out.
That's the way.