I..I..I really miss U..

Saya masih belum tdo...
hati saya terkenang kan seseorg..
xpatut sy kenangkan lagi pada org yg xmahu..

Tetapi hati sy sampai hari ini xmahu putus asa..
Biarpun sy tahu dia sudah pegi jauh dari sy..
sy menyesal dahulu sy xmenghargai kehadiran dia di sisi sy..

Dulu sy ada peluang..tapi sy xmenggunakan nya..
Kerana sy segan..sy malu..sy mana penah keluar dgn lelaki..

Dia tahu perasan saya padanya..
Itu menjadikannya lagi parah..
kerana sy hanya lah kawan padanya..

Tapi hati sy tetap menyukai nya..
wpon dia dah berbyk kali memecah kan hati sy..
mungkin sy dah terbiasa??
Mungkin penangan drama korea??

Saya teringin tanya keadaan dia..
tapi sy malu..

Saya teringin tanya susah kah hidup dia di tempat org?
tapi sy malu..

Saya teringin tanya adakah dia menjaga makan dan minumnya?
tapi sy malu..

Saya ingin tanya adakah dia merindui sy seperti mana sy merindui dia?
Mungkin jwpan nya sudah tentu 'tidak' ...

Sape lah sy di hatinya..
saya pernah berdoa pada Allah SWT, jikalau tidak ada jodoh diantara saya dan dia..Bantu lah sy melupakan nya...Tapi jikalau ada jodoh diantara kami..Permudahkan lah jalan kami..

Bila saya berjaya lupakan dia..dia muncul dalam mimpi sy..
Mungkin ramai anggap bila sy mimpi dia, maksudnya mimpi yg indah..
TIDAK sama sekali..

Saya benci mimpi pasal dia..
Setiap kali dia muncul dalam mimpi sy..
Dia xpenah pandang sy..
Seperti sy tidak wujud..
Setiap kali sy cuba mendekati nya..
Dia lari..dia mengelak..

Bila sy bangkit..sy pasti rasa lemah badan..
Hilang mood..rasa diri sy ini sgt menyedih kan..
Sudah la realiti ini dia xmahu sy..
Malah dunia mimpi pun dia xsuka pd sy..

Adakah ini satu petanda?
tuhan mahu sy mengingati dia?
atau mengingatkan sy supaya lupakan dia krn dia xpenah peduli pasal sy?

Sy seorg yg setia mungkin..
setia xbertempat??

I really hope he see this..
But I know that is so impossible..

Hope u r doing well in your study..
Hopefully u will marry someone that is suit for you..
Hopefully u r happy..

Just knowing that I always be here for u..
If only u know~

Saya takot nak tgk result!!!

Alamak..result da kuar...

mcmana ni..takot nyer..kalau dok pikir psl benda ni..boleh giler terus sewel..

haih..nasib baik tak boleh bukak..

Tapi xlama lg sure boleh bukak..

sape2 ade tips nak bagi result power??

belom terlambat kan???

selagi result xtgk..

ada harapan kan? kan? kan?

Istigfar byk3...

Harap2 ada rezeki kali ni...

Hopefully the history doesnt repeat itself again...*sob3*

Omg...hensem kan dia!! Yunho oppa!!

Bukan sahaja pandai dalam mengetuai DBSK..

tapi dia juga mempunyai sifat leadership, charisma, romantik yg tinggi!!!

I'm so attracted to his manliness( btoi ke eja?)...

wpun tegas dan kuat berusaha..

tapi bila dia ngan kekasihnya..

dia sgt sweet..he is happy kalau awek dia pun happy!!

cair nyer dia ckp mcmtu..

full with leadership quality n maturedness(matang la)..

I want husband with this type of materials!!!

Anyone???

A new rise of sunshine.

Salam everyone..

Nothing much to talk here..but just want to share a bit of what's happening with me lately..
After the school holidays, I realize I've changed a lot..well, in a good way..
I've become more positive, stronger, I can handle the pressure..I cant believe I did it!
The most important, I've become more diligent..hehehe..I've started growing love reading LAW books..as like before, i always felt dreadful n keep procrastinate studying..

But, whenever I feel want to give up..I remind myself what my parents had gone through just to make sure I succeed..I need to repay their deeds to me..and I cant do that if I dont have education..because without education, u dont have money..and without money, u can buy nothing!

that's all..


P/s: yesterday, me and atiq without fiqa and v ( lovely roommate ) watched devil wears prada n chori2 chupke2!

Motivation

Have u ever feel insecure?
To be someone u want to be, but u r afraid to show who u really r..
u think people will stare at u in disbelief..
u dont want to be the odd in the group..
the weirdo..
the loser..

like, everyone is smoking, but u dont..
like, everyone has pakwe makwe, but u dont,
like, everyone mencarut2, but u dont,
like, everyone know every 'cool' places, but u dont,
like, everyone wear selendang n tight dress, but u dont,
like, everyone feel proud to have lots of frens, but u dont,
like, everyone is really smart, but kinda think u not that smart,
like, everyone is kurus, but u dont,
like, everyone is lawa, but u dont,
like, everyone doesnt wear make up, but u do,
like, bla bla bla~ (infinity)


Stop rite here n think...It is okay with u to sacrife ur personalities an allowed others to bind their 'concept' with u?

U also lose all ur attitude n change completely from head to toe..
from baik to jahat..
so that u can satisfy their need?

so that u can be accepted?

But, deep inside u hate it every moment..

u want to reveal n be who u r..

BUT..

u held back by people around u..

u wait for one day to come for someone to accept u the way u are..

DONT WAIT..

Dont wait for someone to tell u that u r allowed to be who u r or do what u want..

If u r waiting...u r waiting far too long..

Life is too short to wait for ur dreams...

U have to Chase them now..

BE who u want to be..

U decide, its ur life, ur sole..not them..

ACT NOW..

Nothing is more fulfilling than doing what u love and being who u r..cewah..

Everyone is busy and fighting with each other to get results, until they forget to be human for a while.
Trampled everyone around them, left them out, and make sure only they survive(pass in exam).
It's not enough to just win, u have to have attitude.
Attitude that can carry u in this dog-eat-dog world and hereafter.
Win with dignity not dirty.
Help other people, and Allah SWT will help u out.
That's the way.

Hidup ini akan lebih terurus apabila kita rajin.

Tiga Bdak POYO..

Salam..
ok, ni memang menyampahkan dan membengangkan org sampai rasa jari jemari ni nak kasi penampak skit kat mrk..

ceh, kalau hensem xpe la jgak..ni habuk pun xlayak..perangai jahiliah btol!

Tadi x de la geram sgt..tapi cara adikku ckp, lagi marak api kebencian pada bdak Poyo..

camni citer..

tadi kul 12 lebih, after gi shopping ngan adik laki hani...ye tu adik laki sy..bkan bf yer..jgn salah faham..memang suker gler kuar ngan adik laki dari kwan..sbb dia boleh tolong bwak brg2..hehehe..slalu dia yg kene..slalu gtau dia..mcm ni bru lah leh bina otot2 kat tgn..haha..ok, tersasau jauh plak..pastu, ktorg pun gi mcd..kat sebelah hani, duduk la tiga bdak laki( hint, ala,yg slalu berkepet tu..sorang tinggi , sorang pendek , sorang xpendek sgt..)..

hani mcm nak tegur..tapi terpikir patut ke tegur..sbb kt kenal kan..xkan x tegur..kt kan malaysia..one malaysia! hahaha..

tapi xtegur pun..

so, after dah pedas2 mkn..air mata dah meleleh2 mkn..kami pun blah..so, nmpak bdak2 laki kat dpn ktorg..waktu tu we r heading to bas station..so, sbb ktorg jalan laju..hani tepaksa lintas diorg yg jalan mcm siput sedut..waktu tu xkan xnak tegur kot..waktu tu la jadi..

saya: eh, korang dari klas D, E, F ke?
(mcm xde soklan lain nak tanya..adeh " - _ - )

bdak2 poyo : x la, ktorg bdak A, B, C...hahaha..diorg gelak..gelak yg rasa mcm nak blasah je dgr..

hani mcm..huh? blur gler...pastu hani kata ' xpe la'..terus jalan laju tggl kan diorg..
adik laki hani yg dah jauh kat dpan terus je pusing patah balik kat hani..tanya apasal ngan diorg..

agak ah..ketawa diorg sampai adik hani kat dpn2 tu pun leh dgr..dia mcm bengang ah org buli kakak dia.hehehe..ceh, hyperbola lak..

hani kata xde pape..dgn cool je hani ckp camtu..adik hani plak lebih2 yg marah..
dia kata..' tu la kck..lainkali jgn tegur laki2 kat tepi jalan..mrk memang mcmni..kalau diorg kenal pun, diorg buat2 xkenal..' hani jwab..'eeii, poyo gler!' adik hani tambah..' memang laki ego la kck..eish, next time kck jgn buat lagi tau..' dgn suara bengang dia tuh..

jwapan dia buat hani dari cool2 ke hulkman terus kot..xtahan statement dia..tercalar maruah hani dgr..pastu hani jwab..'nak x kck belasah diorg? ' haha..tgh panas hati ni, dah xingat org perempuan..'eh, patutnye dikwan yg belasah diorg..' hahaha...ktorg ketawa..reda skit..lpas teman kan hani, dia pun balik ke jati..the end~

eish, pantang org memperlekeh kan hani mcm ni tau...bila dah mesra dan peramah..dapat lak org2 mcm ni buat perangai biadap..xpatut la..tonyoh muka diorg ngan garam, belacan dan cili bru tau! buat mask face skit..Mmang poyo gler ah diorg...setiap org dalam dunia ni..mcmana ayu ke, pemalu ke, pendiam ke..dalam diri masing2 pasti ada sifat 'beast'..

jangan la main2 ngan org mcm ni..nmpak je luar lembut..dalam..hmm..hati2 la skit...sifat ni memang perlu utk melindungi diri kt...beza dia beast besar or kecik..kalau x ader je msia yg perangai mengalahkan setan nak buat cari psal ngan kt...mcmana nak aman dunia..

tu je la hani nk ckap..jgn krana hani buat baik iklas2 ngan org....korang nak pijak kpala hani plak..boleh je tahan..tapi bila dah penoh muatan, ko hancur kat situ jgak..kalau hani xmampu lawan...ader je abg2..ader je adik laki hani kat sni..dia penjaga gym kat jati kot( bangga gler ah) siap ah bdak2 laki poyo!!! xnak tgk muka korang lagi..

p/s: roommate suruh tulis yg mrk tgk enak mkm mcd swaktu hani ngah tulis blog ni..ai teh tarik, ai v..hehehe..

Sebarkan ini...

I like this songs...share ngan korang..satu usaha kecil dari seseorang boleh mempengaruhi orang2 around u..so spread the love..

[Miley:]
A word's, just a word
'til you mean what you say

[Nick:]
And love, isn't love
'til you give it away

[Miley:]
We've all gotta give

[Nick:]
Yeah,something to give

[Miley & Nick:]
To make a change

[Chorus:]
Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach a heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action the chain reaction
Will never stop
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on

[Demi & Joe:]
Just Smile
(Just Smile)
And the world
(And the world)
Will smile
along with you..

[Joe:]
That small act of love
Thats meant for one

[Demi & Joe:]
Will become two

[Miley:]
If we take the chances..

[Nick:]
That change circumstances

[Nick & Miley]
Imagine all we can do

[All]
If we

[Chrous:]
Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach a heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action the chain reaction
Will never stop
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on (oh send it on)

Send it on..

[Miley:]
There's power in all of the choices we make

[Demi & Joe:]
So I'm starting now there's not a moment to wait


A word's, just a word
'til you mean what you say


And love, isn't love
'til you give it away

[All:]
Send it on
(Send it on)
On and on
(on and on)
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
(be a part)
Reach a heart

Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action the chain reaction
Will never stop
Make it strong
Shine a light and
Send it on

On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach a heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action the chain reaction
Will help it start
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on

[Demi:]
Shine a light and send it on..

[All:]
Shine a light and send it on..

kering poket ku..

hani punyer poket slalu kering..
knpe kering?
sbb slalu beli benda merapu..
bkan itu je..
buku2 yg mgalahkan kamus..
dulu waktu kecik, rasa bangga ada kamus tebal..
skrg..hmm, xlarat nak baca..
malu minta wit dari abah..
biar poket kering jgn hati kering..

p/s: oh, ape aku melalut2 ni??